| 037. |
[10 May 2010|11:57pm] |
I for one, am finally glad to see you admit you can't win, Voldemort. If you could, there'd be no peace offering. There'd be no strategy of creating chaos in the desperate hope that people would be too scared to challenge you. Because you KNOW that if we stand up and fight, you will fall. You underestimate us, you cowardly son-of-a-bitch. You have no idea what we're capable of. We're not afraid of dying to save and protect our loved ones. You are.
That is why you will lose.
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| 036. |
[04 May 2010|06:32pm] |
[Warded to the Order]
Do they really think that will work? The curfew? I just don't know. It makes our jobs more difficult, at any rate.
I've been trying to research more places or things that would be significant in Tom Riddle's life, but it's a lot to go through, and no real leads yet. I'll keep looking. If Nick were
Oh and obligatory public service announcement: Please remember to keep your portkeys with you at all times. I've just finished the Tonks and Weasleys, so you should receive them in the post tonight.
[Warded to Remus]
So, you never really elaborated - how was the last full moon?
[Warded to James]
All right, third trimester. We can do this, right?
God, I can't believe I'm still going to get bigger. You know I don't like flaunting the wealth I happened to marry into, but, I wouldn't say no to nevermind. I don't, so let's not.
Thank god back rubs are free?
[Warded to the Marauders]
Tomorrow night then? Covering for the Prewetts? You lot going to be at the pub with them or what's the plan?
[Warded to Eileen Snape]
Hello, Eileen. I know it's been some time and I really don't mean to bother you just when I have pregnancy questions, but... if my back is starting to ache? Is there anything I'm supposed to be doing differently? Am I just a complete pansy
[Warded to Severus]
Hey.
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| 035. |
[08 Apr 2010|08:24pm] |
[Warded to the Order]
Wait... what happened?
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| 034. |
[18 Mar 2010|11:58am] |
[Warded to the Order]
If you have any small trinkets that you keep with your person most of the time, owl them to James. I'm collecting everything I need from the office to make small portable portkeys. If you don't have anything, I'll be using all sorts of pieces of junk and sending them out, so if you get a button, thimble, old key, anything like that, it's your portkey. I'm trying to get them all done for Ministry-employees first, but I'm hoping to have them for all of us by the end of Friday night.
I'd suggest setting them to one of our known safe locations, being the castle, Bones estate, or the Burrow. Setting them to your home might be dangerous if you end up being attacked there. To set their return location, just tap it twice lightly with your wand and say the name of the location clearly, like you would if you were using the Floo.
If you ever need these locations changed after that, you'll have to bring it to me so I can recharm it to take a new one.
Also, if there are family memebers who know all about the Order already out there and you'd like them to have one as well, let me know their names.
[Warded to Regulus & Severus]
Do either of you have a trinket that you keep with you, usually? I'm making portkeys, and I think the both of you should have one for safety, as well. Anything small enough for a pocket will do.
And I... I'm so sorry. I've told Severus this already, but Regulus, if there's anything you need from me, or anything I can ever do, please let me know.
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| 033. |
[16 Mar 2010|02:48pm] |
( Warded Private )
[Warded to James]
Sorry about being an emotional nutter last night. I love you. So so much and I have a surprise for you when I get home tonight. Plus I'll grab your favourite for dinner. I just-
I need y Okay, stopping before I start being a loony on you all over again.
[Warded to Remus]
Want to grab lunch?
[Warded to Sirius & James]
All right, I think we've got things ready to do this.
James and I have discussed our options and - we'd like to ask if you will be our Secret Keeper. It's dangerous. It means that someone could go after you to get to us, but we trust you. But we would understand if it's something you're not comfortable with, as well.
[Warded to the Order]
This is slightly... off-topic, but I just thought I'd let everyone know that I've been able to brew up a batch of Veritaserum for our own personal use. Obviously, I hope it doesn't ever come to that, but if we ever get the chance, I thought it would be good to have available. I don't think we can afford to let another Barty slip through our fingers without getting anything from them.
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| 032. |
[08 Mar 2010|10:05pm] |
(after this)
[Warded to Marauders]
Sirius? Are you okay? Can we do anything?
[Warded to James]
If you want to go check on him whatever he says - probably for the best, even if it's just for moral support?
[Warded to Severus]
I Regulus
Severus?
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| 031. |
[28 Feb 2010|09:38pm] |
[Warded to the Order]
I'll be in charge of communications, tonight, so if there's trouble, let me know. Good luck, everyone, remember to stay safe, and out of sight of DMLE if possible.
[Warded to Severus]
ACONITE? What exactly is in the potion they're giving Remus tonight? Besides werewolf poison.
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[26 Feb 2010|09:27pm] |
[Warded to Sturgis]
I know this is probably the worst timing ever, but, Severus has asked that I not be one of his contacts any longer. If you think he needs a third besides you and Remus, you might want to let him know. I'm sorry if this jeopardizes anything.
[Warded to Marauders]
I Can we
Remus, has Mr. Bones got you on anything new this weekend?
[Warded to James]
Can I ask for a hug when I can't even explain why? I'm feeling slightly- I don't know what it is. I just- I feel like I'm going mad and I think I'm just being stupid and pregnant, but I just... need a hug.
[Warded to Melanie]
Good luck this weekend, Mel. Keep me updated.
[Warded Private]
Why am I so shocked?
He doesn't want me to hate him and then-
I thought I could trust him. Unless it really is something I did.
And I can't even talk to James about it because he'll just confront him again and Remus has enough to deal with.
Bloody hell, get it together, Lily. You survived it before, you can do it again. We're in a war. I can't go to pieces over a friendship. A broken friendship at that. It's not fair, but I can't think about this now, I have a sodding job to do, don't I.
[Warded to the Order]
I'm not quite in shape to patrol this weekend, I'm afraid. Caoimhe, shall I take over communications duty for you?
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[25 Feb 2010|12:08am] |
[Warded to Severus]
Remus was
Let us know if the Death Eaters have anything to say about the werewolf incident tonight. You'll have to tell me though, not the others. They can't answer at the moment.
[Half hour later]
Severus?
[One hour later]
You better not be ignoring this just because you're ma- no, no, actually please only be ignoring this because you're mad. If something's happened I swear to god I will hurt you! Call me whatever bloody name you want, but don't do this to me!
[About 2 hours later]
Remus was shot. They were Muggle werewolves and he was shot in the arm. He's okay, but it hasn't been pleasant. And Sturgis-
It's awful. We're still waiting to hear back. I don't know if I should be saying a word, but that's why you'd only be able to talk to me if you know anything, okay? Please talk to me? At least tell me you've gotten this? I mean, there's no reason you'd be anywhere near there, but you're usually still up now. So I'm just checking.
[2 hours & 45 minutes later]
Sev, please, if you're okay, answer me? I'm so sorry. I don't know what I did, or what had you upset tonight but please tell me you're okay. Please tell me you were nowhere near anything dangerous tonight. I've been thinking about the fact that you were there for the Bones attack and now I can't stand the thought of you being involved in any of them when I know what they involve - we've lost too many people, and I couldn't handle it if you- just- charm your reply to ring or something. I nearly dozed off on Remus and Sirius's couch a bit ago, but we're still waiting to hear about Sturgis so I don't care what time it is, wake me up?
God, please be okay.
[Just past 7:30am]
Got word on Sturgis. he'll make it. Going to bed now before I pass out on the couch again. Write me.
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[24 Feb 2010|09:05pm] |
[Warded to Remus]
UGH.
Am I doing something so wrong? You're talking to Severus lately - why can't he just leave James alone? I'm so sick of worrying about everything I say to Sev. I'm so sick of not being able to have fun with James where Sev can see because then he shuts me out and apparently thinks I'm a slag or something so
so
And then it's not fair to James if I'm so angry I want to scream and throw things and cry he doesn't know why so I open my big mouth and vent, to which James, bless him, feels the need to defend me, but I know it's just going to make it all worse because I only just got Severus to trust me - and he still can! God! I have a bloody right to tell my husband when someone accuses me of being a slag! I've hardly told James anything Severus and I say to one another, and I think he's been extremely brilliant about the fact that the Death Eater bloke he hates with a passion is having hidden secret conversations with his wife on a regular occasion. I can only ask so much of him.
I just wanted cinnamon-sugar doughnuts and Greek food.
[Warded to Melanie]
Why are even some of the best blokes in the world complete and utter asshats sometimes?
And I'm not actually talking about James. I mean. I'm not thrilled with him at the moment either, but still I just-
Girls night soon? Please?
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[20 Feb 2010|05:50pm] |
As someone who's been a victim of these attacks, I have one thing to say to any Death Eaters out there: Fuck you.
[the following crossed out after conversations with Remus, Regulus, and Severus below]
What are they even trying to say anymore? What is the point? What does any of it accomplish except hurting people? I thought there were at least some sort of twisted, skewed set of morals behind that lot, some reason they believed to do all of this, as that tends to be the case with fanatics, isn't it? They think they're right, they believe what they're doing will better the world... but this? It's sick. Muggles, Muggleborns, Halfbloods, Purebloods. Rich or poor, young or old. None of it matters anymore, apparently. If they're trying to send a message, they've gone about it in a completely stupid way. Pureblood? Doesn't matter if there are so few left, if you don't think you're better than everyone else, you're worthless. Children? Doesn't matter! They're either psychopaths or complete hypocrites and I'm beginning to think it's a combination of the two, with a bit of idiot thrown in there for thinking the human race as a whole is going to stand for it.
[Warded to James]
For our sanity:
- We find a flat to rent out, and make it looked lived in/move some of our stuff there.
- Tell all of our friends, the Order, my family, that we're moving and laying low. Mentioning it publicly might not look cautious enough to be sincere, so I'm not sure how we let that leak to the Death Eaters... unless I ask Severus or Regulus to tell them that. But then one of them will know we're up to something.
- Tell our closest friends that we're moving to the flat we've picked out and from then on we'll have company over there. I'm fine admitting to the boys that it's not where we stay every night since they'll probably wonder what we've done with the Fidelius information Remus was kind enough to dig up, but that's all then they'd know.
- We actually stay in Godric's Hollow, and only the two of us and our Secret Keeper would know this. I hope this works, because I'd be pissed if I had to leave that brand new nursery you built.
- I stay at work unless I get reason not to.
You think it should be Sirius, then? You sure that's not too... obvious?
[Warded to Marauders]
I am really bloody sick and tired of sitting around and waiting to try and react to what they do. Isn't there any way we can go a bit on the offensive? If they've attacked James and I, chances we're all already suspects - I really doubt we can put ourselves in more danger.
[Warded to Severus]
I'm sure Sturgis has already grilled you, but I just thought I'd touch base...
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[11 Feb 2010|09:35pm] |
[Warded to James]
You should really go home to take those naps, love. As adorable as you are curled up in that chair.
[Warded to Friends]
I'm alive, recovering, and no longer high as a kite on potions, only high as... a little - wait, can you cross that out? Oh - well, bollocks. Anyway. I just wanted to thank all of you for everything: the food, the thoughts and prayers, the visits... I'm just... I'm so grateful. I don't know why they'd suddenly care about the Potter lineage so much as to come out and attack us, but I assume it has to do with the lineage, and all of that complete nonsense, but I promise you all that James and I will be infinitely more careful from now on.
[Warded to the Order]
Thanks for everything. I'm feeling a decent bit better today - I'll be in here for awhile yet, I guess, because apparently dark magic and internal organs are a rather nasty combination. When I manage to stay awake long enough, it's pretty boring. What have I missed?
[Warded to the Marauders]
What do we know about making a place unplottable?
[Warded to Severus]
I know you visited... I can't say it's not fuzzy, but... I appreciate it. I know it was probably dangerous er- difficult.
Are you okay?
[Warded to Sirius]
Keep making sure he eats and sleeps and things? I'm not sure my threats are very convincing when in this condition.
[Warded to Regulus]
Rain-check on that strategy meeting?
[Warded to Remus]
So... what did you need help with before I decided to go and be inconveniently mauled?
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[06 Feb 2010|05:15pm] |
Ignoring the psychopath since she's dead and I'm enjoying myself
I have the best friends in the world.
That's all, really.
[Warded to James]
I see you over there, being Mr. Host. This party is fantastic, and I've been told you were the instigator. I love you.
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[05 Feb 2010|05:52pm] |
( Warded Private )
[Warded to James]
I hope you like slightly over-cooked pasta. Do you have a pub night or anything, or is it a night in? We're still on for going to Dad's on Monday night, right?
And can I ask you one thing and then we can go and pretend that tonight's completely normal without any Order or war or manic werewolf Death Eating rubbish?
[Warded to Melanie]
You know, as much as I'm not the biggest believer in retail therapy, I'm really looking forward to shopping tomorrow.
[Warded to Eileen Snape]
I hope Severus sent my thank you along, but just in case, I'd like to thank you again for tea on Wednesday. It was brilliant seeing both of you again, and your home is much cozier than I remember it. I had to go home and make sure my husband didn't starve or regress to eating dry cereal for dinner or I'd have stayed a bit longer. I hope we can do it again sometime!
The baby now officially has a nursery since James was sweet enough to put the entire thing together for me for my birthday. It's a great shade of light green and I think it's currently my favourite room in the house. Sometimes when I think I can't handle everything, I step inside it and just pretend that everything's all right smile at the adorable furniture and decorations. Then things are okay.
It's on a Friday night in like this that I actually do miss being able to just sit back and have a glass of wine while I curl up with a good book.
Which... actually I haven't done that in awhile. Any suggestions for something not too heavy?
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[02 Feb 2010|12:46am] |
[Warded to James & Remus]
Wednesday afternoon okay for you guys for tea at the Snape residence? (I know, how awkward does that sound?) Should we tell the others?
[Warded to Severus]
How's Wednesday?
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[31 Jan 2010|03:30pm] |
[Warded Private]
Thank god I'm never turning twenty again. We couldn't find the horcrux. Benjy's dead. God dammit.
[Warded to Marlene]
Raincheck on lunch?
[Warded to Severus]
Sorry I didn't reply sooner to your owl, Sev. Rough night. The book is brilliant, though, I can't wait to look through it. And I look forward to this week.
[Warded to James]
Thank you for making my birthday a brilliant one before everything happened last night. I love you. Take a nap with me?
[Warded to the Marauders]
Stay safe tonight.
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[27 Jan 2010|04:03pm] |
( Warded Private )
[Warded to James]
You told me to tell you when it goes beyond just speaking with him over the journals. I think it's fallen into the next step. Or will, this time next week.
[Warded to Edgar Bones & Sturgis Podmore]
I know you're both probably insanely busy these days, but I just thought you'd like to actually hear my side of things instead of everyone else's opinion
Well, I've talked with Severus for awhile now. So, if you'd ever like to hear my thoughts on it, feel free to ask.
[Warded to Remus]
So, you've been chatting with Severus lately?
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[23 Jan 2010|05:48pm] |
[Warded Private]
I feel like I've been in such a haze the last week, since finding out about Madeline Lupin. The wedding later today is proof that life goes on, and I admit that I was less - panicked, I guess, when I first found out, versus when I thought Remus himself would - but how many...
I've already whined to James and Severus about that. They don't have the answers, none of us do. I've done everything I can think of for Remus, tried to keep myself focused on him, because whenever I stop and think about it, I think about how that's another mother, gone. Worse than when I lost mine, or James's. At least those gave us time to say goodbye, and while there's something to be said for a quick and painless way to go I don't - on the one hand, I'm almost glad Mum went the way she did, on the other, I wish she was still here more than ever. Madeline was a brilliant Mum and while I didn't see her regularly, whenever I did it was a bit like having a mum again.
I'm glad so many people have been good to Remus this week. While "I'm sorry" never does the feeling justice, there's more comfort I think in just knowing people are there to support you.
Remus will get through this. We smiled and laughed and things were almost normal, like they should be last night after the funeral. That's what he needed, I think. He's got Sirius, James, Peter, his dad, me, the whole Order basically alth-
[Warded to Marlene]
Where the hell have you been?
[Warded to James]
Let's have a hell of a time tonight. Just don't get too sloshed to dance with me.
[Warded to Severus]
I'm sorry if I snapped at you before. It's been a rough week.
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[17 Jan 2010|01:55am] |
[Warded to the Order]
Sorry I'm a bit belated with this, but as Remus said, the Horcrux information as it now stands can be found if you just tap your want here.
It looks like we've covered quite a few locations, there are some we're obviously continually looking at, but if anyone has any information on the Nimue's Cave, The Underground Library, or the Chamber of Secrets, let me know and I'll add it - Caoimhe, if you're not up to checking out the library anytime soon, I could take your place, if need be?
We've discussed looking at some of our suspects' estates - Remus and I have been looking up who in particular we might want to investigate, but if anyone has an idea off the top of your heads, let me know.
Also, I'm thinking we might want to look into places that were special to Tom Riddle himself specifically. I might pop up to Hogwarts in a weekend or two to talk with Professor Slughorn again. If he can tell me more about who exactly spent most of their days with You-Know-Who when he was young, and maybe any place he may have mentioned... It's as good a lead as any, since so many came back empty-handed from our initial searches.
And cheers to Caoimhe for all this initial research. It's fantastic. You feeling better?
[Warded to James]
Two weeks until we could technically find out the baby's gender... do we want to?
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[11 Jan 2010|11:56am] |
[Warded to Marauders]
Impromtu get together at our house tonight, boys, don't worry, I'll be providing supper. We did some brilliant work on Friday, but this time we really just need to talk, go over a few things. It looks like there's been some secret-keeping going on amongst the Order, and while I understand the discretion for the most part - well, I think we should all be on the same page.
6 o'clock all right with you lot?
[Warded to Sirius]
I'm hoping this includes the bit about Regulus? I know we have to be careful, but they have the right the know if I'm targeted, they might be too and there's some things about Sev - they're going to wonder where it all comes from.
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